Visited many specialists and consultants looking for a possible cause of such a strong recurring headache but nobody had a conclusive answer.

After all those years I can say with minimal hesitation this headache can be attributed to the intensive intellectual operations in that complicated brain of mine.

Dreaming is an experience that some people I know don’t go through except occasionally.

For me, it sounds like my brain is working even while I’m asleep. It never rests, why? I have no clue…

I dream of everything, more precisely; my dreams mirror unrevealed issues and hidden facts, regarding the past and sometimes they are future oriented. Sometimes, people whom I’m not interested in seeing or my ties with them are weak come and tell me strange things that never came to my mind before! Most of the times I don’t really wanna know. They just invade my sleep, complain or educate me about specific things and leave.

I start wondering: is it the sixth sense I had since I remember?

I asked Allah lately to mitigate this sense a bit so life and humans would be less predictable and I won’t go through the pains in advance of when incidents actually take place. I guess just when I thought it vanished; it has been revived!

Sometimes I just wanna scream to the whole world: أنا بحلم , i.e. I’m dreaming.

Thought the story would end in that very simple manner.

Thought I could think of the whole life as one continuous dream.

Thought this would change the fact that I’ve always seen the future along with what goes behind the walls and the locked doors.

Found out lately the problem wasn’t really seeing the future. The problem is: the accelerated deterioration in human values.

Please let him know that even if he blocks his ears I would still tell him: don’t say 3adi about things you’ve never accepted before cause that’s not you. Stand up as tall as a man, look yourself in the mirror and recall that what you see on TV and copy is not reality. The TV set was there to program us to comply with the programmer’s rules. Now, are you still convinced of what you see in the mirror? One more thing dear: the Phoenix Retrieval turned to be one of my pure hallucinations and legendary dreams for two reasons: 1^st the phoenix is an imaginary bird and 2^nd you decided to maintain the status quo. Change isn’t a coincidental state. You need the intent, the plan and performance measures that would feed you back with the achievement level in comparison with the planned.

Dear, you are absolutely a captive of the MATRIX currently and until you decide to take the cuffs off.

It’s the chocking point where guys get very interested and propose while they don’t meet your criteria within the religious beliefs' category and your friends start convincing you that "you can change him" and "maybe you were meant to fix his life", but is it really the case? Honestly at this very point of time, it’s impossible for me to fix my own life…

Bottom line it’s the point where your responsibilities are beyond one human’s capabilities to manage.